Was soll ich nun schreiben...

He took a deep breath in the cold dark night. His hands were covered in the pockets of his jacket because he didn't use any gloves. "It's so damn cold", he whispered and straightened his collar so his scarf would fit under it. The night showed his breath as it would be a painting fading away but still awesome to look at. He smiled when he saw a billboard in the middle of the night lit by a lantern."I hate that I can't tell you this", the billboard said with big red letters. "That I love you", he finished and looked sad down. His feet leave marks in the snow as well as he did in his heart. He never said these three words to him and now he couldn't anymore. He lost his chance when he hugged him one last time. "Goodbye", he whispered to him before he was looking at him one last time. Maybe these three words would have changed everything and his love wouldn't have taken his suitcase. Maybe he wouldn't have the sad look and the broken voice that tried to sound stronge when he said "Goodbye" back before he was going to the plane. "FUCK", he screamed trough the night when a tear was rolling down his cheeck. "FUCK FUCK FUCK", was coming from him when more and more tears were following. He ran with his hand through his hair. "Fuck, I'm such an idiot", he whispered now and bites on his lip. Why I couldn't say these three words. He thought because he knew his love wouldn't have taken the plane. But now it was too late because his love would never come back. It was his flight to the ground of the ocean. Lost and never found again. If I would have said these three words... He thought when he wished the tears away and looked one last time to the billboard. He knew he had to continue his life even when he don't wanted it. For him.

~written by RenKazuma